Vulnerable: "Give me your heart, I won't break it"
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to
the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the
captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,
To preach the acceptable year of the Lord.
Luke 4:18-19 KJV
I remember my years attending TM camp as a camper, one year in particular 2012 sticks out in my mind when it came to being vulnerable in my relationship with God. I recall my experience happening in our mid-day worship service. I was on my knees at my seat praying and crying out to God to help me because I could not locate where the pain that I was feeling was coming from. At that moment I resolved in my mind “God knows best of how to help me,” and I felt him say, “Give me your heart, I won’t break it.”
It was at that moment it clicked to me that I truly was brokenhearted I was brokenhearted about the things in my life that I could not control. I was brokenhearted about the way people treated me. I was brokenhearted over people that I gave my heart to and they mishandled it.
I was brokenhearted about the things that I had missed out on and thought I could not get that time back. I was brokenhearted. I remember thinking, then asking God, “How did it get like this, how did I get like this?” He answered saying, “Because pieces of your heart have been scattered everywhere and in a place, it doesn’t belong, Give me your heart, I won’t break it.” At that moment I cried so hard, up until then I don’t believe I had ever cried like THAT in my life.
In that time of worship, I felt God gathering the pieces of my broken heart and binding it up, healing my heart.
After some time passed, I picked myself up off the floor and sat in my chair and I felt
God asked me, “Do you trust me with your heart?” With that question, I felt a sense of
peace and security and I said “Yes.” When we make the decision to be vulnerable with God we open ourselves up to experience healing, deliverance, and freedom. We should make a conscious effort to take everything to the Lord in prayer and truly trust him to handle it the way He best sees fit. We should be willing to pray the prayers that are uncomfortable but give him free reign to get in “our business,” and be God.
There’s a place by him (Exodus 33:21) where we can be all of who we are with him where we can tell God ALL about it. A place where there is security, shelter, and safety. That place that was being exposed is a good thing because there his presence is waiting to do what pleases him and what saves us!